I've been visiting the new house quite often lately to monitor the progress. Just today we went to pick out our tiles, doors and windows. I'm super excited but at the same time a little worried.

A couple of days ago, the contractor tore some of the ceiling down and saw termite trails all over the roof. And later discovered that it was even worse than we thought cause they've gone thru the doors and anything they can chomp into. Meaning we'll have to either repair or replace. Which also means more money. Then we'll also have to treat the place so it won't come back. Like that how like that?

My younger brother had just enrolled in the 5 year course at NUS for architecture. He's living at the hostel there. I'm really happy for him. Sometimes a little envious. Haha! But.. hopefully he'll do good there.

Here's my dilemma and i feel so bad for even thinking about this. I've been saving up for things. Big and small. Some are immediate stuff like that gorgeous oh-so-very-awesome Gibson Les Paul and a 42 inch flatscreen tv or a new paint job for the car. Haha!i know.. such a guy. But then there's the other things I've been working myself for. To travel. A short film. A start-up studio. A 42 inch flatscreen TV.. lol. You see; I'm helping out with my brother's fees and the house plus the expenses for the car. I look at this list and i'm guilty for hesitating. I know i'm gonna have to put myself on hold for a while and work my way back up. Originally i had planned to go travel when i'm 28. Country to country all over the world before i turn 30. I guess i'm not gonna be able to till a little later now. Where's my stewardess with some free tickets when i need her. Haha (And yes, you do have something to gain. I'll carry your bags around, remember?).. maybe i'm just selfish.. i can't answer that..

My brother asked me to look at a couple of brochures for laptops just now. They were on offer for NUS students and will only be valid till next week. And not including all his archi equipment, stationary and books. So.. i'm guessing my MacBook Pro will have to stay with it's Apple daddy a while longer till i can adopt it for myself. But i'm glad dad is helping my brother out a little with his allowances. Dad.. aigh.. that's another whole new issue. but i'm not gonna talk about him now. I've given up on asking him for anything a long time ago. but I'll still fight for my brother with him..

Sometimes i stress myself out with such thoughts. And i think Miss WahWah might be getting tired of my moods by now too. lol. I'm sorry, miss. It's just that, sometime i guess I dunno what to do and your brunt honesty would usually slap me flat on my back. Haha.. however hard that slap might be sometimes. How can u not admit to the sexyness of I? I play a lot of jokes.. and i'm sure all of you know when i'm just joking cause i make it a point for you to know.. But how can someone not admit to me being sexy, right? aiyah..

"Once i was away from myself.. just drifting nowhere. then i woke up missing being where i just was. Finding myself staring at my phone intensely. Standing at the office entrance door staring out at the skies. Sitting at the beach in the middle of the night looking out at the passing ships. Stoned in my car not knowing where to go to pass the time. An empty passenger seat next to me. A bag of clothes in the boot and passport in hand. I can go anywhere.. then I look to my left. An empty passenger seat.. I stare at my phone again.. hoping for it to ring.."